Humm...

I've come to the conclusion that love is like a drug, it is REALLY a chemical thing. I have my ups and downs all the time; one minute I'm completelly fine, and on the next one, I'm a wreck and as AA would say, live one day at a time.
The ironic thing is I can cheer some people up with the same problem but yet I can't bring myself together... ain't that a bitch.
But life goes on, I'll eventually forget my ex and move on and bla bla bla, but while that doesn't happen, I cry every other day. It sucks, hell, but at least I've been avoiding bugging people about it and I guess I've done a good job, because everybody keeps telling me how I have handled this so well. Whatever, here I go to cry again...

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I'm so pathetic that it makes me sick. I have to study and all I can do is cry, stare at the computer and cry rivers. I cry because I don't have him anymore. I cry because it's not the way I planned; he doesn't want to stay with me enough to take me with him to wherever he goes. I cry because I don't think he cares. I cry because I belive he's reliefed. I cry because all of these things give me reasons enough to dislike him, but I don't.
Life sucks right now, and as much as I know this is best for me it just doesn't feel like, all I want is to give up and simply stop existing. I wish I had broken down yesterday not today; today I need to study, I need concentration and all I get is these stupid tears.
There's been a long time since I last felt this way, I thought it would stay like this for a long time but I'm back to my old me! I don't wanna be this way, I don't wanna whine, I just hope that everytime I post something it'll ease my pain. I'm glad I quit my job, otherwise I'd just be a wreck and not able to teach...
I hate this, I hate him and more than anything else, I hate him.

Done

I'm officialy single.