More of the same

On another note, I wonder has my lovely boyfriend really changed? Is this humiliation worth the while? Can I really belive and trust him? Should I even be asking this questions? Ok, I know, if I feel the need to ask, then I shouldn't be with him, but the truth is I'm still trying to figure out where's the right and the wrong in this situation...

Procrastination

I don't know why, but I always had this problem with starting a new school or a new job; I just don't wanna do it. I didn't wanna start working but now that I did, I'm so excited about it, there are so many cool projects waiting to be done... Although, it's City Hall, and I'll probably end up not doing anything at all...
There are so many things going on right now, with work, my transference test, school work and now this contest that I really want to participate that I feel that sleeping is so overrated. Actually, my mind thinks that, but my body disagrees and all hell breaks lose in bed. It's just so horrible, I end up waking up and feeling awfully tired. I know it's anxiety and I need to learn to control that but it's much easier said than done...

Retrospect

I went back to the beginning of this blog and started reading my first posts. It is so funny and embarrassing at the same time! Either I'm whinning about this guy who I spent most of my life in love with or I'm trashing men in general.
The funny thing is that I got over all of my boyfriends way faster that I got over this guy. Sometimes, I'm not even sure if I'm completely over him because until this day, he's present in my life. On top of that, after the last facts, I started wondering if I had made the right choices in the past. All I know is that things are different now, I'm more mature and have a different view from all of it. I can say I was more emotion driven back then and now I rationalize more.
I guess if I was anyone else, I'd think I was really man-dependant. Maybe I never really cared for blogging when things were good, I've always wanted to write when I needed to get something off my chest. Unfortunatelly, it has always been love-related, lol.
I still write about the same "topic" (sort of), but I think my problems are more mature. I'm well aware of the decisions I have to make now and maybe I don't whine that much...? Anyway, I belive that the good thing about this blog is that I can always look back and see who stupid I was and avoid the same mistakes... lol