Thursday, February 20, 2003

Happy birthday to me!


There is nothing that could ruin this day! I've been having the best time since a week ago, when friend threw me a surprise b-day party, I was so happy and had so much fun!!!!!!!!!!
Today I went over my friend's house b/c it was her b-day too and I gave her present and I came back home. I kinda wanted to go out and do something, but I don't know, I have to wake up tomorrow early in the morning, so I'm pretty sure I'm staying at home.
My "friend" called be to wish me happy b-day... I was a little upset that he called but I was glad he remembered. I don't know, maybe someday it will stop hurting and we'll be friends again, for now, that ain't happening.
I'm also seeing someone, it will be a week tomorrow. But I don't know he broke up with this girl about 2 weeks ago and I don't wanna push it. To tell the truth, I don't know if I want something serius with him, I'm more go with the flow right now. I'm enjoying the moment for now and that's what matters. I had a great day today, it was actually pretty normal, just a few more people more than the usual called me but it doesn't really matter b/c its MY day, and I celebrated the way I wanted: happily.

Tuesday, February 04, 2003

"I was supposed to be
The heartbreaker
I was the one who
was supposed to survive
I wanted to break your heart
Just to save my own"
Artist : John Mayer
Song : Love Song For No One (Live)

This song's about... talkin to the person you haven't even met yet.
Maybe they're rollin' around in the hay with someone else,
but, they're not as good as you'll be... you just gotta wait your turn.
She's out there, he's out there,
they're just learning what to contrast you against.

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
This sucks! Its been over two weeks and although I'm really pissed at him I just can't let it go that easily. It hurts!! I've been used by him and I never thought I would and it hurts like hell. The good part of this is that I want more than ever to work out.
I'm so pathetic, I started this blog b/c of one guy and now, by the way, he has a girlfriend and I can careless, I keep writing about somebody else.
In 4 months it will be a year since it all started with my "ex-friend". Well, he used me, no good friend does that, so he ain't my friend no more.
Just changing the subject of a moment, I just remembered this song me and Vivi used to listen when we were in that crapy place:

Artist : 3lw
Song : No More

im gettin a little tired of yo broken promises promises
looking at your pager seeing different numbers and numbers
call you when your studying, hangin with the fellas the fellas
hanging with my girls you always gettin jealous 'n' jealous

i was with you when you didnt have no dollas no dollas,
hangin at the crib chillin wit yo momma yo momma
never fronted you never brought the drama the drama
now you flipped the script playa please

no im not the one...say it again say it again oh...no im not the one...
you do or you dont

{chorus}
you do or you dont dont
you will or you wont wont
no more no more baby ima do right
you can or you cant cant
be a man be a man man
no more no more baby ima do right

you treat me like a lady when you open doors and doors
but then you wanna front when you wit your boys your boys
how you gon play me when i bought yo clothes yo clothes
the clothes that you be wearin when you wit yo does yo does
you know you never thought that i would have the nerve the nerve..
you think about it more since you at the curb the curb
blowin up my pager say you want a chance a chance
listen when i say playa please

{chorus}
you do or you dont dont
you will or you wont wont
no more no more baby ima do right
you can or you cant cant
be a man be a man man
no more no more baby ima do right

i just wana know...what happened to our love?
we used to be best friends...where did it go wrong?
when ya gonna see how good it is with me
im tired...and im through with all your 'listen baby'

{Kiely Ki's rap}
hey yo your promised me kate spade...but that was last year
boy in the 8th grade...and you aint biggie baby boy so no it aint
one more chance...when your friends around you dont wana hold my
hand...and now you see a girl styling
and wildin inside the mix...hoppin
out the whips...the whips the five and six...
yes fly chrome..so pardon my tone
....here go a quater go call Tyrone

{chorus to fade}
you do or you dont dont
you will or you wont wont
no more no more baby ima do right
you can or you cant cant
be a man be a man man
no more no more baby ima do right
no im not the one sing it again sing it again
no im not the one im tired of hearing baby ima do right
no im not the one never again never again
no im not the one baby im not the one
no im not the one say it again sing it again