What's to be expected

I've been somewhat frustrated with all... I've come to the conclusion that I hate my job. Not the place, not the people, nor the students, but the profession. So, I got my ass to sign up for the test to get another certificate. I can't keep complaining, so I AM doing something about it.
I'm frustrated that I feel like soon I'll lose my boyfriend and as much as I already knew this, I'm still not confortable with that. The time is coming and he kinda pretends it'll be okay but deep inside I know it won't. So I guess I just should be going on with my life as usual, and although I knew I should've kept my mouth shut, as I good PMS girl I broke down on the phone last night and of course, had to tell him why. And then, hours of silence on the phone, he felt bad, I felt worse because like I said, I shouldn't have said anything. Now, he'll probably not say anything else to me, and I'll stop being the one he goes and tells everything. It hurts, I know, but I gotta let him go and focus myself on my job and what I want to o with my life and of course, God and my spirituality.
BAAAAAAAAAAAH!