Fuck it...

Almost 3 months without talking, seeing or even hearing about Pedro. It was too good to be true of course. I saw him today at the College Games WITH A GIRL. How nice. She was really short, so guess it might have been his ex... well, not so ex now...
I don't know, I wanna belive also that it was his ex, I guess it hurts less... I just so hate this whole situation, I wish I was over him, it would have been a whole lot easier, but instead, I'm still in love with him, completely. Guys come and go and he's still on my mind. The ironic thing is that I thought about him a couple of days ago and when I told my friend she said that i could've been just lonely and I told her it wasn't it, I really missed him, and tonight I hat that confirmed.
I'm such a pathetic looser... I'm in love with a stupid guy who doesn't love me back. Okay. It's official, I hate myself for that.
Fuck it, fuck him, fuck what feel for him. Fuck it all.